Find an image of the transcendent that is yours, that you do not hate or envy or fear. One that you can speak to and listen to comfortably, one to one. Feel free to set aside what does not help you, even the idea of God, itself, if you must.

If there is a divine, then certainly they will help you find them. (If there is not a divine then at least you have not poured your energy into hating the nonexistent.) - Kushana from http://www.kushanasbiblequestionpage.com/
(Definitely a site worth checking out, though make sure you have a decent block of time to peruse the site — it’s extensive!)